This has been a very challenging week for me as you may have gathered in the last two posts. Today was supposed to be my rest day but it ended up being a massive cleaning day and going to the grocery store hungry day.
My body is tired because I haven't been able to cram enough food into it which is really just a product of what I was taught to do from my teens. It's also difficult to pile in the food when you are trying to set a good example for parents who often over eat. I crashed right before dinner because as I was raised to do I'm not allowed to snack before dinner even if it's an hour away. That hour between getting home and food I fell asleep in bed even though I was supposed to be working on some layout work. I'm frustrated at myself because eating is supposed to be the easy part but it's obviously not. I've only managed around 1400 calories today which would be fine if I wasn't working out and building muscle because my body is trying to build the muscle that I have been working on all week. This is not fun right now but I am going to push through and fight.
I'm hoping to keep this blog up but this is all the energy I have left for today and I am hoping to sleep in tomorrow so my body is ready for the gym again.
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